weigh-in today

Ah, the long-awaited results... I had to miss last week's weigh-in because I had to work:

Down 1.8 pounds, for a total of 33 pounds gone

If I want to reach my new goal - hitting 35 pounds gone by my birthday a week from today - it means I need to drop 2 pounds this week. I've done it before, for sure, but it doesn't seem like something I should count on 100% because I have one very stressful final on Monday (preceded by frenzied studying and likely a lack of exercise on Sunday), a double-birthday celebration and concert Monday night, a long plane ride to Colorado Tuesday morning, and a week's worth of vacation to follow once we're there, likely to include more celebratory dinners and general eating out, since we won't be at home. Does it mean I can't eat healthy? Of course not. But realistically, it's setting myself up for failure if I expect a massive loss during a vacation week, especially when it's a birthday vacation week. So, I may not make it to 35 pounds gone by next Saturday.

But you know, the cool part about it all is that I still weigh less than I've ever weighed before as an adult. As I've mentioned before, the last time I weighed this much, it was only in passing, on my way to higher numbers. For those of you counting, I'm over halfway to my goal: I started out with 60 pounds to lose, and so far, I've lost 33 of those, which means I've only got 27 left to go (good math, Anne!). Along with that, I'm wearing sizes I have only worn in passing... in single digits, no less. I look better than I have in eons. I have color in my cheeks. I can run several miles, several times a week, and not collapse into a heaving gelatin heap on the road. In fact, I love to run. I love exercise in general. My legs have actual muscles in them. The back fat is mostly gone. My face is more defined. My eyes are suddenly bigger with more sparkle. There is curve and form and femininity that looks back at me in the mirror.

Am I eager to get to goal? You bet I am. But I'm enjoying this time, this rediscovery of a girl I never knew.